Why I Quit Exercising

Before we moved to OKC, I was exercising 4-5 times a week. I had a running buddy I was running with once a week. I was lifting weights at the Y. I was doing Zumba. I felt good about myself and my weight. I was in shape!

Then we moved…to another state. That is tough! Moving across town is one thing, but to another state…it’s just more stressful. I got out of the habit of exercising regularly. I tried to run a few times a week, but it was difficult to find time to while we were getting settled in and I was trying to find a job. Then a great opportunity presented itself to me. I was able to purchase a one-year membership to a gym, for only $45. And I could bring Jim with me every time I went! I thought this is it; this is the push we need to get back in shape. So we started going a few times a week, and I felt awesome! I could walk up the stairs at work and not get out of breath. 🙂

But then winter came, and winter makes people lazy. (In reality, that’s just a lazy excuse). At this point we had been trying to get pregnant for over a year. And what I really thought in the back of my mind was, what if my exercising is keeping us from conceiving? I’ve read it is possible that strenuous exercise can do that. So I told myself and others that I stopped going to the gym because it was cold. But I think I really stopped going because I was afraid. I wanted to do everything in my power to make sure my body could conceive.

Recently, I’ve noticed I haven’t been feeling so great. I am out of breath after walking up the stairs at work. I don’t have as much energy as I used to. My metabolism is slowing down, which is most likely just a wonderful result of aging. I’ve gained a little weight and now weigh more than I ever have before. Not that I think I’m overweight, I just know I can be healthier and could stand to lose about ten pounds. I’m tired of telling myself I can’t exercise because it might hinder my chances of becoming pregnant. I HAVE to take care of myself and do what makes me happy. And right now, I am not happy with the shape I am in. So I’ve decided to start working out again.

My brother-in-law inspired me to order a free No Days Off calendar from Track Smith. It’s meant to encourage you to run every day, but I am taking it to mean do SOMETHING once a day. Instead of sitting on my butt watching TV, get out and go for a walk. Or do sit-ups and pushups. Or workout to Zumba on the Wii. I haven’t been doing something everyday, but I’m doing more than I was. Today I went walking/jogging outside for the first time in over six months, and it felt amazing!! I’m sore, but it’s the good kind of sore. I am not pushing myself to my limits, because I don’t want to do anything strenuous since I do still worry about it affecting me getting pregnant, but at least I’m working out again.

What I’ve learned from this is….I cannot put my life on hold. I can plan for a baby, which I think we’ve done an excellent job of, but I can’t stop living. I can’t not go on vacation just because I won’t get my fertility meds from the doctor that month. I can’t put off my kitchen remodel that I am dying for because I’m worried it will use up too much of our house savings and we might need that for the baby later. I can’t not plan trips and Taylor Swift concerts seven months in advance because I think, what if I’m pregnant and have to cancel? I can’t not go out to eat because we need to save money for medical bills that may arise. And I can’t not exercise. So I’m going to do things that make me happy. I will not keep putting things off while hoping and waiting for a baby. Because what if I do and then I never get to do those things? I’m not saying I should always get to do what I want, but that I need to live life, make ME happy every once in a while, and not put my life on hold. So that is what I’m going to do, and I’m starting with exercise.

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4 thoughts on “Why I Quit Exercising

  1. Good for you!! I think we all go through that journey and it’s so great once we realize that life goes on and moves fast! We have to learn to enjoy every season we have been given. My husband and I changed our mindset from missing out on a baby to truly enjoying the time we have left with each other. That shift in our thinking has made all the difference. We no longer feel like we’re missing out. My prayers are with you on this journey!! Xx

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  2. I love this post, and I particularly love this sentence “I cannot put my life on hold. I can plan for a baby, which I think we’ve done an excellent job of, but I can’t stop living.”
    I am guilty of doing exactly what you are talking about her – focusing solely on our future child and not planning for me, not living for me, and not ensuring my own happiness exists somewhere within all of this infertility drama. While we still have work to do, I can honestly say, in the last 3 or 4 months as we’ve worked to reclaim our lives and start living for us again, we are exponentially happier! I hope you are able to achieve the same success!

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  3. of course you shouldn’t stop doing all those things when trying to conceive! I don’t think that exercice is wrong for conceiving, I think that the better your health is, the better for your fertility. Too much exercice is only not such a good idea when you are actually pregnant. In my first TTC year I also put a lot of things on hold. Like taking a more expensive gym membership for 6 months instead of the cheaper one year membership, not booking a holiday and having to go last minute on a camping trip (this year we’re going to ICELAND baby!!! with a cancelling insurance just in case), not planning a big party for my friends (I still haven’t done that actually) because I’m afraid I would be too tired to dance if I was pregnant, etc. I say, live your life, excercise and go on holiday and then at least you will be happy with the way things are going!

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